The Life Of A Fun Size

The Awesome last teen of a fun size :)♥

Hey World! I'm finally 19 :) Though i may be fun size ( not SHORT!) who might be mistaken to be only 6 or 7 of age, but hell yeah I'm 19 already! Oh well...My last teen was really awesome with all my cool & awesome friends! I'm not lying, they're all A-W-E-S-O-M-E! ( don't get jealous la PC, you're still the the awesome of awesome ok! )

So yeah the day before I went for class and back to my hostel and in the night Pauline asked me out to accompany her to snowflakes. So nothing really special. Krystal said she was holidaying in Bali and so i had to wait for her to come back to celebrate with her. Sigh...what kind of bestie right! But the story is just the beginning.

At midnight, the first to called was awesome again :) You damn awesome right! Then was Huixin who called and talked for quite a bit. By then messages were coming in. I got Pauline's message 1st. Then, Dini Wg, Sufy, & Kui San's messages came in all at once. Such a coincedence! What you guys doing la! lol.. While then, Krystal msg me, i was kinda touch la since she said she was in "Bali" right! And Kelly Tan, Jonathan, Kelly Ho, Elaine, Desmond, Vivian, Christopher, etc...messaged but i slept like after replying Elaine i think.

Well, the funny thing is Sufy's message was amusing as he made a point to test if i'm smart enough to scroll down his msg where he started off with his lame stuff 1st and at the end he wrote the wishes. And yea he got me! I din scroll it down :( And my no.1, he msg me saying Some ppl get taller on their birthdays and everyone gets older. So i have no choice but to get older! I get it ok!

The morning my Birthday, i actually wanted to skip my class but feeling guilty for not going, i dragged my heavy body to class. I was late so din bother to wear my contacts and just clipped my hair to class. I thought i was gonna go back to my hostel straight after class. As a matter of fact, my idea was crushed when Ivan pulled me to the foyer for some reason. And yea i knew tt they were gonna do something by then in my heart. I went to the toilet, after i came out, never knew i tt so many of them were there singing with a cake and 2 balloons! You know it's in foyer, where so many ppl hangs out and i was embarrassed but still happy la! They wanted to surprised me in class but lucky thing they did not, if not i'm gonna be so damn shy wei!

I felt so shy cos i was wearing my ugly-nerdy glasses and yesh i kinda hate it and it was my bad hair day. I din wanna take pictures but still had to. So wearing the ugly-nerdy glasses of mine, pinned up fringe, holding the dini and pc( angel & demon) balloons, jessica's home made butter cake, & everyone's singing to the Birthday song. It felt good cause it's with all your friends that you much love. I remember Sufy was damn semangat wei. Singing damn freaking loud. Thanks la! So excited huh!



They did all this just so to make me feel there ain;t gonna be a surprise at night anymore for me. Gosh..they really did too much! It was suppose to be pc, dini, and me for the night only. We went to our famous Medan for lunch and seriously Jessica's cake was really good :) And Elaine and Des said they're not coming for the party at night as Des has class. So yesh i believed them. You know Elaine has a ability to make us believe her so easily :) Lol...

After all tt, i went back to my hostel to get my rest and prepare for the girls to come over to shower. And tt was the day when i talked to my room mate the longest wei! Like 2 hours man! Fyi...she's leving this thurs for good! Haha! See good timing right :) Btw..after talking to her, i went to shower and by then i can sense with my six sense tt they were here already. So i dressed up and there were them in there the second time without me welcoming them! lol..

And i was so suprised once again what was on my bed! Now Don't get the wrong idea of anything. No stripper anything for me this year! Quite dissappointed ok :) Anyways there was this board and there were pictures of me and mostly dini and pc! Aww...how sweet of them right! *heart melts* They spent their time in McD the day before to do this! I am seriously so touched for all this! You have no idea. Btw...





We girls got ready and then what else Camwhore la! We camwhored in my room like nobody's business. Not surprised. You know right how it feels all you ppl out there! I guess all of you do :)

Hence, off to a destination which is not told. Surprisingly, on my birthday it din rain at all! Btw...while we were in the car, PC actually purposely msg me to say the surprise is after the dinner. I was like reading the msg as if i din see it and kept quiet. The place we went for dinner is called treehouse bistro near OU. I went up to the elevator and was shocked to see so many people once again! I mean i expected people being there but not so many. I was just speechless.

Another cake came out and me wishing again! When i turned my back, guess who i saw! Krystal and Pauline! Ya right she went to her Bali trip. But i was happy to see them no matter what :) I went around thanking everyone cos i was so surprised to see everyone. I never knew you guys would turn up. Elaine and Des of cos turned up in the end :) Slowly, no.1 came, best friend, thira, ben, buddy jieyan, sean tan and all came along. I am really thankful for everyone who came! It's seriously so nice of all of ya :)

It was supposedly Jere's surprise party too as we din get to celebrate with him too. His one was before mine and so Elaine (his gf) had the hard time to drag him to go and in the end i can totally see he was surprised! I mean he's touched too of cos just like me :) Another birthday song and cake sang out again!

After all the surprise, there goes the time of talking, crapping, camwhoring, and eating! There are too many pics! Thanks Kelly Ho for uploading. I know it's a hard time to upload all of it and it's annoying sometimes but still Thanks abundant ok :) Of cos...Jett Kyii for tagging all of us as usual!


Oh ya...my friends gave me a perfect surprise party and of cos presents ! I got a necklace i always wanted from them and it's just beautiful :) I also got a tee from my no.1 saying I park like an idiot! Wow...Thanks! A roxy purse from Krystal and all! Of course a card from my awesome friend. I went home reading it and i was laughing and yet feeling so touched =)


I don't know how much I need to thank you guys. I know I've been like the planner for Birthdays for this whole year for everyone but it's kinda awkward when it comes to you being surprised. May be it's been always for others and now it's comes to me, I'm not used to it. No doubt, I will be planning once again for birthdays next year but till 21 the most la. By then should change the usual plan and it's time for the birthday person doing all the job of belanja-ing! *hint* *hint*

All i wanna say is how much i love you guys out there for making time and effort for doing all this for me. Especially, Dini, PC & Kelly Ho all right! I love ya guys so so much! It's coming from my true heart :) I had so much fun and love from all of you. I am glad to have known all of you. Thanks for those who came that night once again! And those who text me and wrote on my wall in fb or called me :) I appreciate all of it!

It had been an awesome 19th birthday. It's one of my best day again. You people just know how to make my day do you :)

It's been the longest post for me so i gotta stop right now.

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So this is it♥

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I still believe♥

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Cursed!♥

Life is complicating. It always is. My 19 years of life has been great, but seriously it has not been an easy year for me this year. I have to say it's the worse of worse. 2009 marks the worse year of my life. I don't know what's happening to me lately. Nothing's going right for me. I mean everything! So FML!

Ever since the news of failing of my papers and then nothing were going right. So, i failed my paper and it's been one of my darkest moment already. I was seriously down and believe me it wasn't easy for me at all. So thanks to everyone i love, i got back on my feet and i was ready to start all over again.

And again, i was fine and getting back to my usual self. Then comes trouble once again when I went hiking with my friends without my parent's blessings. I thought it was not gonna be so bad, just may be a little nagging. But it was seriously bad. They threatened me to go back to JB and take my course and not giving me allowance as my dad thinks tt i choose friends more than family. So basically i was so devastated once again after all my dad's lecturing and scolding. Seriously, when my dad's angry, he's one scary person :/ *gulp*

Just when i thought everything will be all right. Exams are coming soon and so i was studying really hard. And my birthday is nearing. Hence, everything feels right until TODAY!

I dunno how the hell my wallet got lost. I couldn't find it anywhere. Like wtf! I search every possible area i have been and none and be found. I was freaking dripping cold sweat. I don't want my dad giving me another hell! Till now...no news tt it's found. I am really praying hard tt it'll be found. I mean how can all of this nightmare happen to me! And all so recent. My wallet has a sum of money and let's just skip the money part, all my documentation is in there and i have to do it all over! It's gonna be troublesome and Urghhh!!!! I don't really intend to tell my parents bout it. If i can do it all by myself, i'll do it. I can't put myself at stake again!

So after telling you all this, you might be mocking, teasing, sad or happy or whatever you might be feeling for me. I am depressed here! I mean all this while i have been a happy girl with so much love and support and kinda everything in my life and ALL THIS crush me down in one freaking year. SO FML for now! I dunno whoever or whatever is cursing me! May be it's karma too. I know karma is a BITCH! Pls just let me go. What have i done to deserve all this! Just praying hard everything will be better after all this stormy days of me!

Basically, i am pissed about everything now. Pissed about me and everything around me. I mean why must this happen to me right! I don't deserve all this. I'm not a perfect nor a obedient child i may say but not to the extent to be a black sheep of my family or friends. So i really think i don't deserve all this. It's isn't fair for me. This jinx is just killing me slowly and it's torturing!

I always comfort myself, saying everything will be better after this. But it doesn't seem this way. They say every cloud has a silver lining. I say bullshit for it now. I don't feel any of it now. Bear with me, i'm just so pissed! Just pissed at myself for sucking so badly at everything. I just hope and pray everything will be better as i said.

I will be better for sure. Don't worry. I still believe in my GOD has his plans for all of us even if it's good or bad and that everything happens for a reason and everything will be solved when the times right. I'm sure everyone has their bad times so here's mine. I will not cry as i've done too much crying this year and i hate myself crying. So it's enough! I will be strong. One day you'll see everything will be fine and i'll learn all this as a lesson from GOD and a better ME will appear. Just one fine day. We'll all see...

xoxo even if i'm pissed :)
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Yours Truly

“It is not the size of a man but the size of one's heart that matters.”

The Fun Size

Me,Myself,I

Call me Brenda.
I'm always loud and crazy with friends and i might end up doing all kinds of embarrassing stuff with you. I have mood swings, who can't drive nor cook or may act a little bimbo sometimes. I LOVE cheese cakes =) I'm vertically challenge/Fun Size and it has been an issue for me ever since young. I'm blur,naive and clumsy half of the time. So i may have many bad points. I may not be that pretty, sexy, funny, smart or physical attractive girl you'll find, but I can always be a TRUE friend, listener, daughter, sister, granddaughter, etc. Try me. Love me or hate me, that's just me Brenda. Don't worry, I won't bite =)

Wishlist

Want them!

- Trip to Bali!
- Get A DSLR camera & learn photography
- Graduate ACCA
- Lose weight
- Trip to Australia!
- Bungee Jumping, sky diving
- Cheese cakes ♥
- Backpacking trips around the world
- Learn the guitar
- Gain more confidence
- Meet "the one" in my life :)
- Hike Gunung Kinabalu
- Learn diving
- Understand the bible
- Learn Yoga
- More parties!


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